Party Time!

It was quite a party of three people. Didn't last long but I did learn a lot about the people in my residents/complex. I hope to find more people to be in these shots

So Stressed Out- No Money Still....

I have not been paid at my current job since I have started working two months ago....and now I am furious! I am running out of options but to wait till tonight to see if I am going to get my check tomorrow. If I do not get that check, I am going to try to call up a lawyer that will be willing to take my case probono to see if he can sue Sam's Club for my money or even some sort of hush hush money. I would be willing to take any kind of money that I can. Oh, and as far as I know I am not going to get fired from my job, but I am still going up to the unemployment office to see I am able to get anything or I will try to find a local food stamp office to see if I can get some sort of thing that I can get some money to help Logan and me out to be able to make it by. All I can pray and hope is that when I get the rest of the money is that I will still be able to afford to get my apartment that I had planned out. I would love the little studio she was talking about even if she never called us back to see it.

Poetry Slam: The Littlest Things...

The littlest things in life....
can truly make or break an entire day,
can make a frown into a small,
completely makes you forget about any fights you had that day.
That is what I have learned from being with you.
That is the deepest soul searching I have ever been able to find,
and I used to be Wiccan and meditate.
I can not even imagine enough words of love and thanks
that I could ever say to you.
But I love you....
is what I can say.





To Logan, the soul mate I have been looking for in others. Thank you for helping me see these things. Thank you for loving me as much as you do even though I considered myself unlovable. You are my entire world to me :)

Joy, Passion, And Friendship

God I have not been this happy in a long time. I know I seem to say that a lot but that was before I got my chance to finally be with Logan.....He is just perfect for me in every single possible way. He understands me, he makes me happy, he shows how much he loves me, and is truly my best friend in the whole world. He is just my everything and more. Just me watching him write his book while typing this and I can feel my heart skipping beats over and over again. I literally ask him every single morning "how did I get so lucky to be with you". I can not help it at all. It just comes out more than once I day it seems. His response is always the same "I keep asking myself the same thing". That truly can show anyone that he truly means everything he says especially how he feels. It makes me blush and almost bring tears of joy to my eyes even. He....he is my everything. If I ended up homeless and broke as long as I had Logan I would be happy. And that is saying a lot if you think about it. But its true. He is just.....he is my one and only true love. Being with him has helped  me see that this right here what me and him have is true love. It has to be. There is no other way to explain it at all but to call this LOVE! I have found it! I have found my meaning of my life.....my soul mate....

Well I have to go. I have things that I need to do before I go to the bus stop and go to work. Thanks for reading :)

Poetry Slam: My Tough Choices

Of all the touch choices in life,
You were not one of them.
I feel like every choice I have made with you,
only promises what is set in stone for a future.
It is a great life when I am with you.
You make me love every single day that I can possibly wake up to.
You in my life will never ever be the same.
Everyday is a new adventure with you right by my side.
I love you with all my heart and soul.
It makes me be in a better place every single day no matter where we are
or what we do.
Every little thing that we share always will be loved,
no matter what it even is.
I love you Logan
and I always will. 

Poetry Slam: The One I Have Been Waiting For

The moment when you first wake up in the morning,
and look over to see the love of your life in bed with you.
The sound of their footsteps in the hallway,
and you heart skipping beats in your chest.
The first sight of your loved one
that was gone all day long from you.
That is how I feel every day about you.
The passion in your eyes when you see me
or touch me sweetly.
Its the greatest sensation running through my body all day long.
Like an adrenaline rush times 1 million.
My wonderful Logan,
I love you with all my heart and soul.
And I want you to be mine forever and ever.




Thanks for reading :)

Wow.....Just Wow

I am staying at my grandparents house....yep horrible break up. I wish I was able to see it coming but everything happened all too quickly. And now I am all alone in their house wishing they were home more than anything just so I have someone there to comfort me. But no one is here so I am out of luck I guess. I will just have to listen to music and pray that they get home quickly so I can help them with what ever I need to in order to stay in good terms with them. I wish I knew what they would want me to do.

I am going to try to make some rules that they can agree with me on as well so there wont be any issues and problems as long as we have it all laid out. I am mainly posting this so I can get it all off chest right now. I just needed to vent. Thanks :)